Body Grief With Jayne Mattingly

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caryl murphy
caryl murphy
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𝐼 π‘‘π‘œπ‘‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦ π‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘ . 𝐼 π‘›π‘œπ‘‘ π‘œπ‘›π‘™π‘¦ π‘ π‘’π‘“π‘“π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘“π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘š 𝐢𝑃𝑇𝑆𝐷 π‘“π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘š π‘ π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘™ π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘šπ‘  π‘œπ‘“ π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘’π‘šπ‘Ž π‘”π‘œπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘π‘Žπ‘π‘˜ π‘‘π‘œ π‘β„Žπ‘–π‘™π‘‘β„Žπ‘œπ‘œπ‘‘, π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘“π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘ π‘‘ 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑑 π‘šπ‘œπ‘™π‘’π‘ π‘¦π‘’π‘‘ π‘Žπ‘‘ 9 𝑦𝑒𝑠 π‘œπ‘™π‘‘, π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘‘π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘˜π‘–π‘›π‘‘π‘  π‘œπ‘“ π‘π‘œπ‘‘π‘¦ π‘–π‘šπ‘Žπ‘”π‘’ 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑠; 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝑖 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 π‘Žπ‘“π‘“π‘™π‘–π‘π‘‘π‘’π‘‘ π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž π‘ π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘™ π‘β„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘–π‘ β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘™π‘‘β„Ž 𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑠(π‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘π‘Žπ‘π‘™π‘¦ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘™π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘‘ π‘‘π‘œ π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘’π‘šπ‘Ž). 𝐼 π‘‘π‘œπ‘œ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘Žπ‘› π‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘™π‘¦ β„Žπ‘–π‘ π‘‘π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘π‘‘π‘œπ‘šπ‘¦ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘π‘˜ π‘ π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘”π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘  π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘™π‘Žπ‘ π‘‘ 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 π‘Ž π‘ π‘π‘–π‘›π‘Žπ‘™ π‘“π‘’π‘ π‘–π‘œπ‘›. π‘†π‘œ 𝑖 π‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘šπ‘œπ‘£π‘’ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€π‘Žπ‘¦ 𝑖 π‘œπ‘›π‘π‘’ π‘π‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘ 𝑖𝑛 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘’π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘œπ‘š π‘Žπ‘  𝑀𝑒𝑙𝑙 π‘Žπ‘  𝑖𝑛 π‘œπ‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿ π‘π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘π‘’π‘šπ‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘π‘’π‘ . 𝐼 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π·π‘’π‘”π‘’π‘›π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘‘π‘–π‘£π‘’ 𝐷𝑖𝑠𝑐 π·π‘–π‘ π‘’π‘Žπ‘ π‘’ π‘ π‘œ 𝑖 𝑠𝑑𝑖𝑙𝑙 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑐 β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘›π‘–π‘Žπ‘‘π‘–π‘œπ‘› 𝑖𝑛 π‘šπ‘¦ π‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘£π‘–π‘π‘Žπ‘™, π‘‘β„Žπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘π‘–π‘, π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘™π‘’π‘šπ‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿ 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑒. 𝐼 π‘‘π‘œπ‘œ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘ , π‘Ž π‘›π‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑙 π‘œπ‘“ π‘šπ‘’π‘‘π‘–π‘π‘Žπ‘‘π‘–π‘œπ‘›π‘ , π‘–π‘š π‘‘π‘–π‘ π‘Žπ‘π‘™π‘’π‘‘, 𝑖 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘π‘’ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘π‘œπ‘‘π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘€π‘’π‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ 𝑏𝑒𝑑 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘Ž β„Žπ‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘ π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’ π‘™π‘œπ‘ π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘€π‘’π‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ 𝑑𝑒𝑒 π‘‘π‘œ π‘–π‘šπ‘šπ‘œπ‘π‘–π‘™π‘–π‘‘π‘¦ 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑠 π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘–π‘›. 𝐼 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘ π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘™ π‘œπ‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿ π‘β„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘›π‘–π‘ β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘™π‘‘β„Ž 𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝑖 π‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑑 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘š π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’. 𝐼 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘€π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘‘ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘‘π‘œ π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€, π‘¦π‘œπ‘’π‘Ÿ π‘›π‘œπ‘‘ π‘Žπ‘™π‘œπ‘›π‘’. 𝑆𝑒π‘₯ 𝑖𝑠 π‘Žπ‘™π‘šπ‘œπ‘ π‘‘ π‘‘π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘šπ‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘  𝑀𝑒𝑙𝑙 π‘Žπ‘  π‘β„Žπ‘¦π‘ π‘–π‘π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦ π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿ π‘šπ‘’ π‘ π‘œπ‘šπ‘’ π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’π‘  π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘’π‘ π‘’π‘  π‘šπ‘’ π‘‘π‘œ 𝑔𝑒𝑑 π‘‘π‘–π‘ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘”π‘’π‘™π‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘‘ π‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘‘π‘–π‘œπ‘›π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦ π‘ π‘œπ‘šπ‘’π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’π‘ . 𝐼𝑑𝑠 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘ π‘‘π‘œ π‘’π‘›π‘—π‘œπ‘¦ π‘ π‘œπ‘šπ‘’π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘€β„Žπ‘’π‘› π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘€β„Žπ‘œπ‘™π‘’ π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’π‘Ÿ π‘šπ‘–π‘›π‘‘π‘  𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 π‘œπ‘’π‘‘ π‘œπ‘“ π‘π‘œπ‘›π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘™ π‘Žπ‘π‘œπ‘’π‘‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘€ π‘“π‘™π‘Žπ‘€π‘’π‘‘ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘™π‘œπ‘œπ‘˜ π‘œπ‘Ÿ 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 π‘™π‘–π‘˜π‘’ π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘š. 𝐼 π‘‘π‘œπ‘œ π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€ π‘π‘œπ‘‘π‘¦ π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘“ π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘‘π‘œπ‘œ 𝑀𝑒𝑙𝑙.

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Jayne Mattingly
3 hrs agoAuthor

This is Body Grief. Yes. Thank you so much for sharing a bit of your story, I am honored to have you here! I see you as well. We are not alone. I appreciate you.

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Kate Redacted
Kate Redacted
6 hrs agoLiked by Jayne Mattingly

I love the way this is written, it takes you right into the moment. A moment I've experienced in many similar ways - being chronically ill. I'm post-partum (via emergency c-section, and a heaping amount of birth trauma) and being a mother can feel verrry unsexy, too. My partner also is extremely caring and has never had a moment he doesn't feel attracted to me, but the internal shame can really overpower that sometimes. Thank you for sharing this with us, I look forward to more! Sending love to you, for when you have none for yourself.

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Jayne Mattingly
3 hrs agoAuthor

I see you! I see your Body Grief. This is all so valid and so real, and not talked about enough. I am glad that this atleast resonated with you. I am honored to have you here as a reader.

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Dina Bell-Laroche
The Grieving Place
15 hrs agoLiked by Jayne Mattingly

So poignant. Grief is an emotional, physical, social and spiritual journey of the soul. Our bodies keep the score and show us what needs our attention. Thank you for entrusting us with your story. I am deeply moved.

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Jayne Mattingly
3 hrs agoAuthor

Thank you for being here! I am honored to share. This is Body Grief.

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Marka
16 hrs agoLiked by Jayne Mattingly

Very well done my friend. Beautifully written!

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Jayne Mattingly
3 hrs agoAuthor

Love you friend.

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